Change and Personal Growth

by Neseret on August 6, 2011

Nitobe Memorial GardenWhen your life presents a situation where clear new question forms within you, you are moving in to new expansion. And even when the answer to your question seems nonexistent, you are still well along the way to personal growth.  ~ Ester and Jerry Hicks from Getting into the Vortex

About six months ago I felt like I was a crossroad in my life. I was feeling physically and emotionally exhausted from problems and issues stemming from my job. I had several important questions forming within me that needed answers. What is really important to me? What is it that I want out of life? Do I want to stay at my current job? Is it time for change?

If so, what is my next step?

Prior to that point in time I felt my life was going well. I had a career that I felt very passionate about and loved. Everyday in my work I felt I was making a difference in people’s lives. I enjoyed the people I worked with and thought I was blessed to be there.

I knew fresh out of nursing school that I wanted to practise mental health nursing. I was so fascinated by human psychology and eager to learn more. Right after graduation I found a job at a local psychiatric unit and started working with a group of people who took me under their wings, mentored, and supported me. It was a wonderful learning experience! This was also a huge part of my personal journey of growth and of healing.

“When you stand in the middle of a problem, or even what you may regard as a crisis, you are also moving in to new expansion. And even though the solution to your problem feels out of reach to you that is never the case.

Whenever any question or problem is coming in your life – an equivalent answer or solution is coming into focus as well.”

When I first started nursing I was in a very vulnerable spot in my life. I was desperately searching for answers to find peace and happiness in my own life. In many ways I felt inadequate about what I can offer others. However in time I realized with experience, focusing on personal development and becoming more self-aware I had something of great value to offer to others.

Working in psychiatry not only provided me a piece of my own puzzle but it gave me the opportunity to extend a helping hand.

I am what you would call a wounded healer.

It is very easy to give understanding and compassion when you have walked the path yourself.

Fast forward five years in to my career and the same thing that provided many answer to many of my questions and was even what I thought the solution to many of my problems, I felt was now causing me problems. I was getting sick, physically and emotionally, and becoming very unhappy.

“Your universe is based upon freedom. Freedom for everyone to choose what they give their attention to, and therefore what they choose to experience.”

I choose not to go in to the details of the particulars about my work environment. Every work place has its’ challenges and good points. That said there are some workplaces that are extremely toxic just the same as a romantic or other personal relationships can be.

For me what became clear overtime was the fact I was not able to function to the best of my ability in that environment. I truly believe in personal growth and development. I believe that is one of the major purpose of life – to learn and grow. We’re not meant to be stagnant. I wholeheartedly agree with the teaching of Abraham,

Your life is suppose to feel good to you and you are meant to feel happiness in your life – you are meant to satisfy your dreams.

The longer I stayed in that environment the more unhealthy and unhappy I was becoming. I realized that nothing is worth compromising my health and well-being. Nothing is worth my ‘misalignment’ with my true self/’who-I-really-am’. The most important thing in my life is to be at peace, in other words to be happy.

I had worked so hard to find that feeling place of peace that anything that came in the way of compromising that was not worth it to me. I can only offer others the best of me from my position of strength. I can only offer people value when I am coming from a place of peace and happiness. I can be a better mother, friend, nurse, partner…etc when I am healthy and whole first.

“Others will notice the consistent happiness that you are experiencing, and they can benefit from the power of your example. As you let them know that your happiness is dependent only upon your own ability to focus yourself in to alignment with who-you-really-are, you can assist them in discovering the same freedom for themselves.”

The decision to leave my job was a tough one but it felt right. As a mental health nurse five years of experience working in acute care psychiatry was a solid foundation. It was also a highly emotionally charged area of nursing. Working with people when they’re in the throws of thier mental illness can become emotionally draining after a while. Don’t get me wrong I enjoyed my job but I knew it wasn’t something I wanted to do for a long time.

I enjoyed seeing people get well and start their journey of recovery.

That said growing as a mental health nurse I discovered my passion is really assisting people in moving forward and maintaining their recovery. I enjoy helping people become empowered.

I also wanted to get out of working shift work as it was wrecking a havoc in my sleep and general health. The past six months have been incredible times of change in my life. I have had time to spend on things I have always loved like reading and writing. I’ve had more time to spend with my daughter and my partner. I have had time to attend workshops and seminars on personal development, business, and writing. The connections I’ve made have been invalueable. I’m so grateful for everything I’ve learned and for growing from this experience.

Currently I’m in the process of writing my first book on recovery and healing. I am also excited and getting ready to make a big move to beautiful British Columbia. I recieved a job offer as a community mental health nurse and addictions case manager. The type of work is an area of interest to me. I am truly looking forward to starting this new journey.

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Personal growth August 10, 2011 at 10:11 am

Hi,

thanks for your nice article about Personal growth. It helps me for research.

Thanks

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admin August 10, 2011 at 6:20 pm

You’re welcome anytime:-)

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Grant August 25, 2011 at 2:42 am

Hello- Greatly appreciate your candour and caring sense of forthrightness. Sounds like the shift will be a tremoundous blessing. You will assist many people in the months and years to come.Godspeed.

Regards,

Grant

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Neseret August 25, 2011 at 10:09 am

Hi Grant,

Thanks. I am looking forward to the change. I enjoy mental health nursing and want to help people. That said I want to do it in a way that does not compromise my own values, integrity, and well being.

Blessings and Peace,

Neseret

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